every 5 or 10 minutes i find myself making some excuse to say his name or think of him...geesh whats that age you get to when crushes don't exist?...lol well whatever!!
this weekend was a good one, Friday i cleaned and spent time with "him", Saturday the trio hung out pizza Priscilla's and movies and more time with "him"!!! what a combo! and Sunday i got my hair did...by besty came home and TEXT me which made me feel better...[and again I'm sorry for whatever i might have done to offend her or make her mad. ((we're talking now!! love that girl gosh!!))] oh and Sunday brittums and tierra feel in love! quite with the gayness [no offence]
lol work today went swell!
having a few health issues and I'm the worse when it comes to seeing a doctor. i guess I'll have to go if i plan to get any better. so this week I'm hitting the doctors just gotta find a day i can make it.
oh oh so check this...last night i had the strangest dream right! there was ghost and baby ghost and "him" and whales it was odd and weird there was this mouse that like followed me everywhere with a "help homeless" sign it was like crazy strange lol WEIRD!
but I'm going to check my midterm grade for aerobic weight training and then peace outty...
blog about it later!



Fell asleep with the love of my life in my ear...felt like old times.

You know even after everything thats went down in my life and all the lows i've been through...he's still the guy he started out to be. I've always felt like i can talk to him and i know that after each conversation i'll feel better, happier, stronger, more in control of my surroundings. Even if it wasn't a good conversation and things got emotional or heavy i still came out of it with something positive to reflect on.

woke up on time i guess u can say showered dressed and waited...i was dress and ready before taryn got there..which means i was earlier better i mean on time!...i did a good thing! lol

the weekend begins at 4:30 and i cant wait not that i have plans but that i get to sleep in saturday morning and possibly go visit my sisters which i LOVE!!! lol

honestly im not as chipper as im coming across but i figured if i pretend to be then it'll catch on and eventually be true.

((btw when did dora grow up))


OH oh Oh!!

....the pictures of chuck!!! i've got em!!


isn't he cute!!! my stinka!!

pumping iron!! chuck's a buff guy!


...blogging blogging blogging...wat to blog about?
in ways worth mentioning. I've had some crazy things happen today even...girl Carmen((that liked me or watever we exchanged numbers a while back but things didnt pan out so i lost her number told her to lose mine)) so anyways Carmen comes into my job ask for some assistance all cool right..im at work so im bein polite, having tack and watnot when she gets all crazy on me. taklin "I like and i dont normally like act this way but i like u and i didn't lose ya number i want you...blah blah blah" CREEPY SCARY SHIT! she starts to irritate me at work and is kinda makin a scene IN MY FUCKIN JOB BRAH!!! thats wat i get for being nice to people and talking to them.
**new rule for me to live by: stop giving my number out and being nice to people i know i really dont like!!
-yesterday there was a change of plans me and brittums went out to dinner and Darell tagged along!! it was great we did pizza and chilled at mi casa for a bit! it's been a long time since the tres amigos kicked it...((i'm thinkin since 11th gade))
--i think i did something to pee off my besty, idk i just feel like she's mad at me and i feel bad idk wat i did, if i said something im sorry. maybe im just buggin maybe she's just chill but i feel horrible with the lingering feelin like i hurt her feelings or made her mad.
---i took my Spanish quiz [i kno just a quiz] and i think i did pretty good! probably the first time i felt that way about Spanish in a while
----yesterday was the highlight of my week im sure of it, probably wont experience that joy again for a while. not that im thinkin negative but that i think im BI-POLAR just a bit too many extreme high and lows
*i wont have my besty she's goin home for some family fun!! hope she has a blast!
**think ill take this weekend to take care of things i've been neglecting
***oh gettin my hair done is a must!
****might buy a few things for all hollows eve!
***clean house...im off this Saturday ill do some serious spring cleaning ((its fall i kno watever!))
**hope i get the car if not i'll do more driving I GOTTA PRACTICE PARKING FOR THE TEST!
*i'm gonna miss Taryn!



todays been so frickin awesome so far...like ahh i woke up and that was grand enough just to be awake...i feel good today...like everything feels clean and fresh!

guess what! me and the BFF BRITTUMS are goin to the byrd to catch a flick today!! how sweet!!

lol this morning my besty TARYN surprised me with a dinkie dinoa!! which is a type of tamagotchi! Which was awesome!! ((btw i've been using awesome a whole lot now)) Its a monkey named Chuck, and i think i love hims faces!! Seeing as how he's the cutest thing i kno of! GO CHUCK!!! lol

...so i decided to write in my blog everyday even if its simple things like this it give me the chance to express the way i feel and better get thru the day.

oh OH oH theres this guy...and i know you dont have to tell me yes this is very elementary. but anywho theres this guy that i happen to be fond of maybe more than i lead myself to believe and i just wanted to say he was cute and that i liked him and that although we talk and stuff, i want him to like me back! LOL



....Been a mi-nute minute since i felt the need to blog and i realized so much has happened since that just didn't seem important enough to blog about. AND GUESS WHAT who cares that its not life changing important i can blog about the gum i JUST jammed my knee into at work' at the front desk. Which means a member of the staff that works in this room is not mature enough to trash their frickin gum...UGGH my jeans, agh what a mess.

OH and btw i have on matching socks today, which is odd seeing as how i don't normally wear matching socks. Makes me feel unbalanced; odd right??

In all reality some life changing events has happened to me recently some grand and welcomed others not so much but either way i learned something new. And while looking at the bigger picture learning is always key...lol

Oh OH oH....I just exchanged numbers with my homie GaMMon again, we kinda fell off when he moved, but bac to the matter...we're back in contact and I'm ever so glad! He in all his awesomeness! My phone hasn't been this happy in a while. He's my white male Oprah! GEESH i didn't realize how much I'd missed him until he was back in my celly! MUCHO AMOUNTS