in my feelings

she cried a tear similar to the ones before....heartache

4 days

why hasn't your name scrolled across my phone in 4 DAYS!!!
I'm goin nuts inside and out...idk what the hell is goin on i wish you'd just call me or text me. Hell if its nothing more than to say "FUCK OFF" just let me know your alive and well...i can't call you anymore or text you because i dont wanna seem like im pushy. but I AM DAMNIT! I literally count down the hours to sleep so i dont have to face the reality that your not in my reality. But sleep isn't the release i thought it would be...you have gotten so far under my skin that your effecting my dreams. So i toss and turn and wake up on and off...I LIKE YOU ASSHOLE gosh just put me outta my misery already!

BUCKET LIST

been thinking about a lot of things i wanna do not necessarily before i die but just to say i've done. to be well rounded or cultured...lol maybe just to brag about. so here they are:
*be a r&b singer
*ski
*sky dive
*be a burlesque dancer
*travel the world
*win a man v. food challenge
*publish a book
*be in a commercial
*back up dance for vanilla ice
*star on a reality series
*help deliver panda cubs
and i whole lot of other random stuff...lol some x rated stuff lol just to try it out. im a curious person!